Thursday, May 12, 2011

Just Wonder. . .

Bayangan masa lalu kembali teringat. Begitu pun luka lama, saya kembali merasakannya.

Saya pernah sangat mencintai orang itu. Ia yang mengisi kekosongan hati saya yang telah ditinggal pergi orang lain. Ia yang membuat saya bisa merasakan rasanya ' dicintai dengan tulus '

Tapi apa yang saya pikirkan tak sama dengan kenyataannya. . .

Ia mungkin tidak mencintai saya. Mungkin itu bukan perasaannya yang sesungguhnya pada saya. Karena dari apa yang saya lihat, ia mengatakan bahwa saya bukanlah siapa-siapa. Ia tidak mengakui saya sebagai kekasihnya saat itu. Ia meragukan perasaan saya.

Padahal saat itu saya merasa bahagia dan berpikir untuk membuat cokelat dan mengirimkan padanya karena beberapa hari lagi adalah hari valentine. Dan tidak sengaja aku melihat'nya'.

Karena itulah, saya memutuskan meninggalkannya tanpa alasan yang jelas. Dan dia pun tidak mencegah ataupun mempertahankan saya. Bahkan dia mengatakan bahwa ia juga berpikir seperti itu, mengakhiri semua.

Ya, itu memang kisah lama. Sudah berakhir. Tidak ada lagi perasaan tersisa.

Hei kau,
kemungkinan untuk kau membaca ini menurutku adalah 0,1%
tapi jika kemungkinan 0,1% itu terjadi, aku hanya ingin mengatakan bahwa aku tak akan mengganggumu atau pun berusaha mendapatkan perhatianmu lagi. Tapi aku hanya ingin tahu satu hal, setelah itu aku akan menghilang. . .

Apakah saat kau mengatakan kata-kata cinta itu, benar-benar ada rasa 'cinta'??




" I would love to talk to you in person. But I understand why that can't be. I'll leave you alone for good, I promise. If you answer this one question for me. I just wonder, do you ever think of me anymore? Do you? " - Do you by NeYo




Thursday, November 4, 2010

Boneka Kayu



Saya merasa hidup saya seperti boneka kayu. Yang tak bisa apa-apa. Yang tidak bisa hidup tanpa bantuan orang lain. Yang tak bisa bebas dari jeratan talinya.

Ya, mungkin benda itulah yang bisa mendeskripsikan saya seutuhnya. Karena memang benar, hidupku ini seperti "string puppet".



Monday, October 18, 2010

Kim Tae Woo - Dropping Rain

안녕이란 너의 말에 나 웃으며 아무렇지 않은 듯 행복하라며

An-nyeong-i-ran-neo-eui mal-e na eu-seu-myeo a-mu-reoh-ji anh-eun deut haeng-bok-ha-ra-myeo

가는 너의 뒷모습 바라보면서 나 땜에 울지 않길 기도했어

Ga-neun neo-eui dwit-mo-seub ba-ra-bo-myeon-seo na ddaem-e ul-ji-anh-gil gi-do-hae-sseo

흐르는 눈물보며 떠날수가 없는데

Heu-reu-neun nun-mul-bo-myeo ddeo-nal-su-ga eobs-neun-de

널 보낼수가 없는데

Neol bo-nael-su-ga eobs-neun-de

빗물이 내려서 정말 괜찮았어 눈물이 보이질 않아 괜찮았어

Bit-mul-i nae-ryeo-seo cheong-mal gwaen-chanh-a-sseo nun-mul-i bo-i-jil anh-a gwaen-chanh-a-sseo

괜찮아서 떠나는 너를 잡지 못했어 니 마음속 아픈 기억 모두다 지워줄

Gwaen-chanh-a-seo ddeo-na-neun neo-reul jab-ji mot-haess-eo ni mam-eum-sok a-peun gi-eok mo-du-da ji-weo-jul

빗물이 내려서

Bit-mul-i nae-ryeo-seo

시간 흘러 잊은 줄 만 알았던 너 아무렇지몸 않은 듯 그렇게 살아

Shi-gan heul-reo i-jeun jul man al-att-deon neo a-mu-reoh-ji anh-eun deut geu-reoh-ge sal-a

홀로 걷는 뒷모습만 봐도 바로 너 오늘도 그때처럼 비가 내려

Hol-lo geod-neun dwit-mo-seub-man bwa-do ba-ro neo o-neul-do geu-ddae-cheo-reom bi-ga nae-ryeo

눈물이 나려 고해 그녀를 잡으려해

Nun-mul-i na-ryeo-go-hae geu-nyeo-reul jab-eui-ryeo-hae

웃게 해줄수 없는데

Ut-ge-hae-jul-su eobs-neun-de

빗물이 내려서 정말 괜찮았어 눈물이 보이질 않아 괜찮았어

Bit-mul-i nae-ryeo-seo cheong-mal gwaen-chanh-a-sseo nun-mul-i bo-i-jil anh-a gwaen-chanh-ass-eo

괜찮아서 떠 나는 너를 잡지 못했어 내 마음속 아픈 기억 모두다 지워줄

Gwaen-chanh-a-seo ddeo na-neun neo-reul jab-ji mot-hae-sseo nae ma-eum-sok a-peun gi-eok mo-du-da ji-weo-jul

빗물이 내려서

Bit-mul-i nae-ryeo-seo

가지 말라고 떠나지 말라고

Ga-ji mal-ra-go ddeo-na-ji mal-ra-go

맘으로 말할게

Mam-eu-ro mal-hal-ge

니맘이 울어서 빗물이 내렸어 내맘이 울어서 눈물이 내렸어

Ni-mam-i ul-eo-seo bit-mul-i nae-ryeo-sseo nae-mam-i ul-eo-seo nun-mul-i nae-ryeo-sseo

사랑해서 떠나는 너를 잡지 못했어 맑게 게인 너의 삶의 슬픔을 안겨휫줄

Sa-rang-hae-seo ddeo-na-neun neo-reul jab-ji mot-hae-sseo malk-ge ge-in neo-eui salm-eui seul-peum-eul an-gyeo-jul

빗물이 될까봐

Bit-mul-i doel-gga-bwa


English Translation

Your words of goodbye, I laugh and don’t mind and seemed happy

I look behind your path, don’t cry, I didn’t pray

I do not leave looking at your flowing tears

I do not send them

Dropping rain is quite alright, but your tears don’t seem alright

It’s alright but I can’t catch you leaving, erase all the memory of your sick mind

As time flows only you knew you’d forgotten, you lived, it seemed so, with no mind

Today, you look exactly like dropping rain from behind, walking alone

I’m going to try to catch her tears

But I do not deserve to laugh

Dropping rain is quite alright, but your tears don’t seem alright

It’s alright but I can’t catch you leaving, erase all the memory of your sick mind

Dropping rain

Please don’t go, please don’t leave

And tell your heart

Your heart cries as rain drops, your heart cries as tears drop

I love you, I can’t catch you leaving, and the clear gain of your life is the sorrow

I’m afraid it will rain



My Chemical Romance - Dead!

Yeah!

And if your heart stops beating
I'll be here wondering
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your life

And if you get to heaven
I'll be here waiting, babe
Did you get what you deserve?
The end, and if your life won't wait
Then your heart can't take this

Have you heard the news that you're dead?
No one ever had much nice to say
I think they never liked you anyway

Oh take me from the hospital bed
Wouldn't it be grand? It ain't exactly what you planned
And wouldn't it be great if we were dead?
Oh, dead

Tongue-tied and oh so squeamish
You never fell in love
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your life

And if you get to heaven
I'll be here waiting, babe
Did you get what you deserve?
The end, and if your life won't wait
Then your heart can't take this

Have you heard the news that you're dead?
No one ever had much nice to say
I think they never liked you anyway

Oh take me from the hospital bed
Wouldn't it be grand to take a pistol by the hand?
And wouldn't it be great if we were dead?

And in my honest observation
During this operation
Found a complication in your heart
So long

'Cause now you've got
(Now you've got)
Maybe just two weeks to live
(Is that the most that you can give?)

One, two, one two three four!

La la la, la la
La la la la, la la
La la la la, la la la
Well come on

La la la, la la
La la la la, la la
La la la la, la la la
Oh motherfucker

If life ain't just a joke
(La la la, la la)
Then why are we laughing?
(La la la la, la la)
If life ain't just a joke
(La la la la, la la la)
Then why are we laughing?

If life ain't just a joke
(La la la, la la)
Then why are we laughing?
(La la la la, la la)
If like ain't just a joke
(La la la la, la la la)
Then why am I dead?
Dead!



Gorillaz - Superfast Jellyfish

This morning you've got time for a hot
Home cooked breakfast
Delicious and piping hot in only three
Microwave minutes

Are you kidding?

Pretty package of frosted delights
Look it comes with toy
I like that I want a number four,
A number six and throw
In a plastic doughnut
Just enjoy the gritty crunch that tastes
Just like Chicken

Rappers of many bite sizes
Man are you frickin blind?
It's a rock all mixed in the pot full
Mamma's homemade from scratch
But not quite...
Toasted over flames they be
Tasting quite right

All hail King Neptune
And his water breathers
No snail thing to quick for
His water feeders
Don't waste time with your net
Our net worth is set
Ready go many know others BUT
We be the colors of the mad
And the wicked
We be bad we re-brick it
With the 24 hour sign
Shower my habits while
You dine like rabbits
With the crunchy crunchy carrots
Oh that's chicken...
Got to have it superfast

A whole line of breakfasts
You've got time for

Superfast Superfast I come in last
But just in time for breakfast
Keep us through Keep us through
Whatever blue the night
The night throws at us
Aluminum I crush for fun aluminum
The sea is radioactive
The sea is radioactive

All hail King Neptune
And his water breathers
No snail thing to quick for
His water feeders
Don't waste time with your net
Our net worth is set
Ready go many know others BUT
We be the colors of the mad
And the wicked
We be bad we re-brick it
With the 24 hour sign
Shower my habits while
You dine like rabbits
With the crunchy crunchy carrots
Oh that's chicken...
Got to have it superfast

Superfast Superfast I come in last
But just in time for breakfast
Keep us through Keep us through
Whatever blue the night
The night throws at us
Aluminum I crush for fun aluminum
The sea is radioactive
The sea is radioactive

Superfast Jellyfish (repeated)

Don't waste time
The sea has gone silent...